I would have to drag myself out of bed, rolling onto my side to get up. I battled with myself each morning struggling to get up and going. Finally getting out the door, I want to run back inside and curl into my bed so I could escape the cold crisp air of winter. The wind so cool sending chills throughout my body. Each breath sent a burning sensation through my nostrils. I felt so anxious getting to school; I did not want to be late.
The passing minutes of travel heading to school felt like hours. My body ached, I was so tired. Going to school was not only mentally draining, but physically too. I felt like a beached whale. I was pregnant with my son trying to stay awake. I could barely keep my eyes open. I would feel my head drop so heavy that the impact would wake me up. I would refocus, pulling out my notebook taking the most detailed notes my mind would allow. With every stroke it took to write I could feel it through my whole body.
My due date was soon approaching. I just had a few more weeks to stick out. Continuing to push through the days, finally prom day was here with graduation day not too far behind. I finished school successfully with high honors. Before walking the stage for graduation there was the celebration of prom. I was debating back and fourth about going. I ultimately decided I deserved to go to prom pregnant or not. I felt I had an obligation to myself to attend, and that I did! A few weeks later graduation followed.
Walking across that stage was amazing a sense of overwhelming happiness came over my whole body and I burst into tears. I felt so whole and satisfied. For a moment as I walked across the stage I couldn’t see anyone, I was in complete silence walking alone so proud of me! High school in and of itself is a challenge. I beat the odds. I did it! I was a high school graduate. I did it by myself, and for myself. I was faced with a lot of challenges and I over came them. The road through senior year was far from easy, but it was accomplished and it was worth my entire struggle.